I promised Mrs May I would reply to her letter and post it on my blog

Dear Mrs May
Thank you for your letter dated…when did you write it? It didn’t have a date.

Well you have caught me at the right time because today, as a self employed theatre maker, teacher with experience of zero hours contracts, semi-retired-didn’t-get-my-pension..(er), it is my writing day. Lucky me!

A few words in response:

Mrs May, it is not usual for me to get involved in this kind of activity – elections and letters like this. It is quite out of the ordinary for an ordinary person like me to write something like this. You see, the foundations on which you stand are shaking already because so many ordinary people, like me are now getting involved. You are worried and you need to be. Yes, you’ve worked it out. You have to do something personal to get a response from ordinary people. Well Mrs May, the letter may have used my name and spelled it correctly many times but I don’t believe it is sincere. I don’t trust you with decision-making that will affect the rest of my life and the lives of my loved ones.

Your party caused Brexit (the main focus of your letter) so you should be worried about this in your effort to get me to vote for you in Southport. Are you wavering in your confidence? If you are doing this to every citizen with a candidate in a shaky seat I expect we will have to have extra bin collections. You’re lucky to have all that paper and envelopes and the money to pay the postman as well. You do know you haven’t won in Southport for a while and your ex collaborators from the days of your own chaotic coalition are on very shaky ground too.

I notice you don’t say that if (we) get it wrong it will be felt by all the rich and well off people like yourself…only ordinary people like me. You don’t know me, or do you? I am one of those who lost 30K in the pension changes and I am trying hard to find ways of making that up. Please don’t use a ‘royal we’ with me. If negotiations go wrong and you lead, it will be you who will be called to account. You are 11 days older than me Mrs May and we are poles apart.

Whatever the outcome of Brexit, if you are in charge I know for sure you will make it okay for people like yourself and those who pave your way. You have called an election because you are worried and you want a mandate so you can blame us all when the negotiations get tough. Well Mrs May, I welcome the hope and clear choice I now have.

The thing is a personal touch needs a sense of integrity and honesty. I think that the genuine, secure and steadfast leadership of Jeremy Corbyn and the Labour Party promises something I have never before known in my lifetime and that process will only ask you, one of the few, to pay just a little bit more to make things more bearable for the many. You have read the Labour Party Manifesto, no doubt. It’s just not good enough to talk only about Brexit. There’s more at stake than that and your personal letter to me will not do the trick.

Yours sincerely

Carran Waterfield

PS Because I don’t want to waste a stamp I hope you will pick this up somewhere along the line on Facebook now you are using social media a bit more. I will also post it on my Blog because they read that in China.

PPS. By the way, how did you feel about your 30K pension loss?

Walking with the Ancestors

I dream them and I work them out in my daily life.  I bought a couple of months of unlimited time on ancestry.co.uk and it took over my life so I had to come off it.  But the ancestors leave thumb prints all over me.  They just won’t go away.  They walk alongside me and tap my shoulder every now and then saying:

“check this soldier’s record”

“look at that hospital record again”

“double check this date”

“add the baptism to that one”

“go back to that field…he may have worked in that field”

“which GGGGGGG was that one?”

“is it Grand aunt of Great Aunt?”

Then you get to the Canadian and American lot and it’s just endless.

Archives and the Ancestors they just don’t leave you alone.

It’s a fever and it invades every creative impulse.

I am not complaining. I am very happy for the rich resource that is family.

Aspects of Physical Theatre – log book

Yesterday I began teaching Aspects of Physical Theatre at the University of Manchester.  It is the second time teaching it there for me and I am applying what I learned from the first version two years ago.  It is assessed partly through a  log book so I thought I would have a go at doing my own log entry just for one week; putting myself in the shoes of the students so to speak.  So here it is.

They’ll Be Home By Christmas – studio production with Carran Waterfield


Image from my Little Blue Man Notebook

I teach two courses at Manchester, the other being Devising for Performance.  When both courses come together in one year I often have students who have opted for both courses so it is interesting and important to flag up the difference between the two courses, so there is no sense of repetition, a question that came up concerning students wishing to pursue both courses  Yet  I believe repetition is important and has value.  Yesterday I noticed how those who had done Devising for Performance remembered in their bodies our work on the movement progression through Suprapto Suryodarmo’s and Sandra Reeve’s 9 basic human movements, which we had covered in Devising for Performance in the week on body work.  They followed the progression without missing out the intermediate movements between sitting and standing.


I approached this work yesterday through a different route using Linda Hartley’s cellular breathing exercise to begin with after completing the Hatha Yoga/Pilates exercises I have been doing these last eight years which now form almost a daily warm up for me.  All this followed a short introduction to the course from Jenny Hughes and myself and a gentle encounter exercise with locked and unlocked knees followed by a practical contributing note on the logbook

I remember reading somewhere that we can’t  understand something unless we stand under it.  I think this is a useful thought for working with the body.  To understand we might stand in, under, around, above and within it.

Dog and Man standing
Workman in action of understanding

Yesterday we worked on being/standing in the present moment, considering authenticity and the uniqueness that is each cell making up each person in the room.  We considered the miracle of this and the science surrounding it and I suggested they read about the anatomy of the human body, especially with regard to the spine.  Both Hartley, Tuffnell and Reeve wonderfully integrate the study of anatomy in creative ways.

Linda Hartley Miranda Tuffnell Sandra Reeve

Note to students  – please follow the above links for further reading/exploration. 

We only have three hours and the course is all practical so the students have to research and read much for themselves guided by an extensive reading list in the course handbook.  I strive to help with handouts so I gave them an extract from Sandra Reeve’s Nine Ways of Seeing a Body and some material on Laban as preparation for next week.  I worried a bit that again about repetition and remember crashing through Laban  on the Devising Course.  On a 12 week course how can one possibly cover everything there is to cover? You can only nod at it.  People study Lecoq for a lifetime…and so on and so on.  This is the problem with the focus on practitioners.  We might rather try to be  our own practitioner led by what we absorb from those who teach/influence us. We cannot be them.  I am always confronted and challenged by the hotch-potch of practice that has become my own practice.  Teaching a course formally has required me to learn a lineage of practice locating common ground with practitioners I have not ever come across directly.  I guess this is exactly how it feels for the student required to gain knowledge in a short space of time and through a modular approach to learning.  There is a contradiction here then in  “daily life” that is a living training and  “learning about” that is an education.  Do I want to worry about that?…No, too old to worry about that now. Just get on and do it.

By now you may have switched off/jumped elsewhere maybe but I am writing this for the students so no worries…I hope they haven’t.

In the class we talked about (or I talked about … it’s always quiet in the first session as we work each other out…) how the body remembers what it needs to remember, about efficient effort – just enough to do the action.  We experienced tension and release of tension and the importance of  being kind to the body.  The shoulder stand was difficult and I remembered after we did it that I should have broken it down into segments. I usually do that but they were so compliant I felt we might walk on the ceiling even. I was glad after the yoga when one student asked about tension in her shoulders and another told me her mother loved yoga and another obviously knew something about authentic movement remarking on how energised she felt.  I deduced from the class that there was a quiet confidence in speaking out so I was relieved.  Is this something to do with it being the second semester.  First semester courses are often quietly cautious for me.  This session began quietly but ended with some genuinely sparky observations.  I am hopeful.

I remembered what  autodidactic training with Odin Teatret had taught me – you go with your own speed, your own body, not in comparison to others but only to yourself.  “There is nothing new in what we do”  I suggested that  – this was not a competition.  I reminded myself of the tensions that pervade society created through competition.  Body work is life work, life learning, life being and being in life. It is not a race.

A personal note:

I asked them to draw their bodies.  If I had drawn mine it would have had big feet yesterday.  I am a size three.

Cumbrian Boot Walk

Feet have become a real focus for me these last few years and I have become really aware of my high arches which sometime cause me foot pain so I have taken to doing the yoga work in jazz shoes with inserts/orthotics in them that I get through the NHS from the podiatrist.  My feet have bothered me for years – not in terms of pain but because I was told at a young age that they were weird, so I have considerable issues with them.   I did the session in bare feet and noted how my body reacted to this since it had learned a different alignment through the shoes I had been wearing for the yoga at home.  I prefer working in bare feet because you can feel/sense the floor better but my alignment is better with the shoes.  The rebalancing and redistribution of weight through the inserts affect me from the ground right up  through my spine and it feels very different.  This has created a real conundrum for me which I am going to work with consciously in order to readdress what my body has learned all these years and try to explore relearning balance and what it might have been like had my feet not been weird.

To summarise:

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